第99章
- THE AMERICAN
- Henry James
- 1094字
- 2016-03-02 16:33:11
Otherwise they will be obliged to wait for the night-express, and they will arrive at the same hour as I did.""They won't thank me--they won't thank me," Valentin murmured.
"They will pass an atrocious night, and Urbain doesn't like the early morning air.I don't remember ever in my life to have seen him before noon--before breakfast.
No one ever saw him.We don't know how he is then.
Perhaps he's different.Who knows? Posterity, perhaps, will know.
That's the time he works, in his cabinet, at the history of the Princesses.But I had to send for them--hadn't I?
And then I want to see my mother sit there where you sit, and say good-by to her.Perhaps, after all, I don't know her, and she will have some surprise for me.Don't think you know her yet, yourself; perhaps she may surprise YOU.
But if I can't see Claire, I don't care for anything.
I have been thinking of it--and in my dreams, too.
Why did she go to Fleurieres to-day? She never told me.
What has happened? Ah, she ought to have guessed I was here--this way.It is the first time in her life she ever disappointed me.Poor Claire!""You know we are not man and wife quite yet,--your sister and I,"said Newman."She doesn't yet account to me for all her actions."And, after a fashion, he smiled.
Valentin looked at him a moment."Have you quarreled?""Never, never, never!" Newman exclaimed.
"How happily you say that!" said Valentin."You are going to be happy--VA!" In answer to this stroke of irony, none the less powerful for being so unconscious, all poor Newman could do was to give a helpless and transparent stare.
Valentin continued to fix him with his own rather over-bright gaze, and presently he said, "But something is the matter with you.
I watched you just now; you haven't a bridegroom's face.""My dear fellow," said Newman, "how can I show YOU a bridegroom's face?
If you think I enjoy seeing you lie there and not being able to help you"--"Why, you are just the man to be cheerful; don't forfeit your rights!
I'm a proof of your wisdom.When was a man ever gloomy when he could say, 'I told you so?' You told me so, you know.
You did what you could about it.You said some very good things;I have thought them over.But, my dear friend, I was right, all the same.
This is the regular way."
"I didn't do what I ought," said Newman."I ought to have done something else.""For instance?"
"Oh, something or other.I ought to have treated you as a small boy.""Well, I'm a very small boy, now," said Valentin.
"I'm rather less than an infant.An infant is helpless, but it's generally voted promising.I'm not promising, eh?
Society can't lose a less valuable member."Newman was strongly moved.He got up and turned his back upon his friend and walked away to the window, where he stood looking out, but only vaguely seeing."No, I don't like the look of your back,"Valentin continued."I have always been an observer of backs;yours is quite out of sorts."
Newman returned to his bedside and begged him to be quiet.
"Be quiet and get well," he said."That's what you must do.
Get well and help me."
"I told you you were in trouble! How can I help you?" Valentin asked.
"I'll let you know when you are better.You were always curious;there is something to get well for!" Newman answered, with resolute animation.
Valentin closed his eyes and lay a long time without speaking.
He seemed even to have fallen asleep.But at the end of half an hour he began to talk again."I am rather sorry about that place in the bank.
Who knows but what I might have become another Rothschild?
But I wasn't meant for a banker; bankers are not so easy to kill.
Don't you think I have been very easy to kill? It's not like a serious man.
It's really very mortifying.It's like telling your hostess you must go, when you count upon her begging you to stay, and then finding she does no such thing.'Really--so soon? You've only just come!'
Life doesn't make me any such polite little speech."Newman for some time said nothing, but at last he broke out.
"It's a bad case--it's a bad case--it's the worst case I ever met.
I don't want to say anything unpleasant, but I can't help it.
I've seen men dying before--and I've seen men shot.
But it always seemed more natural; they were not so clever as you.Damnation--damnation! You might have done something better than this.It's about the meanest winding-up of a man's affairs that I can imagine!"Valentin feebly waved his hand to and fro."Don't insist--don't insist!
It is mean--decidedly mean.For you see at the bottom--down at the bottom, in a little place as small as the end of a wine-funnel--I agree with you!"A few moments after this the doctor put his head through the half-opened door and, perceiving that Valentin was awake, came in and felt his pulse.
He shook his head and declared that he had talked too much--ten times too much."Nonsense!" said Valentin; "a man sentenced to death can never talk too much.Have you never read an account of an execution in a newspaper? Don't they always set a lot of people at the prisoner--lawyers, reporters, priests--to make him talk?
But it's not Mr.Newman's fault; he sits there as mum as a death's-head."The doctor observed that it was time his patient's wound should be dressed again; MM.de Grosjoyaux and Ledoux, who had already witnessed this delicate operation, taking Newman's place as assistants.
Newman withdrew and learned from his fellow-watchers that they had received a telegram from Urbain de Bellegarde to the effect that their message had been delivered in the Rue de l'Universite too late to allow him to take the morning train, but that he would start with his mother in the evening.
Newman wandered away into the village again, and walked about restlessly for two or three hours.The day seemed terribly long.
At dusk he came back and dined with the doctor and M.Ledoux.
The dressing of Valentin's wound had been a very critical operation;the doctor didn't really see how he was to endure a repetition of it.