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She knew me by no other; and our connection has always been somewhat of a riddle to her.She said that I was somehow changed since she saw me last.In her rich voice she urged Dominic only to look at my eyes.I must have had some piece of luck come to me either in love or at cards, she bantered.But Dominic answered half in scorn that I was not of the sort that runs after that kind of luck.He stated generally that there were some young gentlemen very clever in inventing new ways of getting rid of their time and their money.However, if they needed a sensible man to help them he had no objection himself to lend a hand.Dominic's general scorn for the beliefs, and activities, and abilities of upper-class people covered the Principle of Legitimacy amply; but he could not resist the opportunity to exercise his special faculties in a field he knew of old.He had been a desperate smuggler in his younger days.We settled the purchase of a fast sailing craft.Agreed that it must be a balancelle and something altogether out of the common.He knew of one suitable but she was in Corsica.Offered to start for Bastia by mail-boat in the morning.All the time the handsome and mature Madame Leonore sat by, smiling faintly, amused at her great man joining like this in a frolic of boys.She said the last words of that evening: "You men never grow up," touching lightly the grey hair above his temple.

A fortnight later.

...In the afternoon to the Prado.Beautiful day.At the moment of ringing at the door a strong emotion of an anxious kind.Why?

Down the length of the dining-room in the rotunda part full of afternoon light Dona R., sitting cross-legged on the divan in the attitude of a very old idol or a very young child and surrounded by many cushions, waves her hand from afar pleasantly surprised, exclaiming: "What! Back already!" I give her all the details and we talk for two hours across a large brass bowl containing a little water placed between us, lighting cigarettes and dropping them, innumerable, puffed at, yet untasted in the overwhelming interest of the conversation.Found her very quick in taking the points and very intelligent in her suggestions.All formality soon vanished between us and before very long I discovered myself sitting cross-legged, too, while I held forth on the qualities of different Mediterranean sailing craft and on the romantic qualifications of Dominic for the task.I believe I gave her the whole history of the man, mentioning even the existence of Madame Leonore, since the little cafe would have to be the headquarters of the marine part of the plot.

She murmured, "Ah! Une belle Romaine," thoughtfully.She told me that she liked to hear people of that sort spoken of in terms of our common humanity.She observed also that she wished to see Dominic some day; to set her eyes for once on a man who could be absolutely depended on.She wanted to know whether he had engaged himself in this adventure solely for my sake.

I said that no doubt it was partly that.We had been very close associates in the West Indies from where we had returned together, and he had a notion that I could be depended on, too.But mainly, I suppose, it was from taste.And there was in him also a fine carelessness as to what he did and a love of venturesome enterprise.

"And you," she said."Is it carelessness, too?""In a measure," I said."Within limits.""And very soon you will get tired."

"When I do I will tell you.But I may also get frightened.Isuppose you know there are risks, I mean apart from the risk of life.""As for instance," she said.

"For instance, being captured, tried, and sentenced to what they call 'the galleys,' in Ceuta.""And all this from that love for..."

"Not for Legitimacy," I interrupted the inquiry lightly."But what's the use asking such questions? It's like asking the veiled figure of fate.It doesn't know its own mind nor its own heart.

It has no heart.But what if I were to start asking you - who have a heart and are not veiled to my sight?" She dropped her charming adolescent head, so firm in modelling, so gentle in expression.

Her uncovered neck was round like the shaft of a column.She wore the same wrapper of thick blue silk.At that time she seemed to live either in her riding habit or in that wrapper folded tightly round her and open low to a point in front.Because of the absence of all trimming round the neck and from the deep view of her bare arms in the wide sleeve this garment seemed to be put directly on her skin and gave one the impression of one's nearness to her body which would have been troubling but for the perfect unconsciousness of her manner.That day she carried no barbarous arrow in her hair.It was parted on one side, brushed back severely, and tied with a black ribbon, without any bronze mist about her forehead or temple.This smoothness added to the many varieties of her expression also that of child-like innocence.

Great progress in our intimacy brought about unconsciously by our enthusiastic interest in the matter of our discourse and, in the moments of silence, by the sympathetic current of our thoughts.

And this rapidly growing familiarity (truly, she had a terrible gift for it) had all the varieties of earnestness: serious, excited, ardent, and even gay.She laughed in contralto; but her laugh was never very long; and when it had ceased, the silence of the room with the light dying in all its many windows seemed to lie about me warmed by its vibration.

As I was preparing to take my leave after a longish pause into which we had fallen as into a vague dream, she came out of it with a start and a quiet sigh.She said, "I had forgotten myself." Itook her hand and was raising it naturally, without premeditation, when I felt suddenly the arm to which it belonged become insensible, passive, like a stuffed limb, and the whole woman go inanimate all over! Brusquely I dropped the hand before it reached my lips; and it was so lifeless that it fell heavily on to the divan.