第63章 THE NINTH(3)

"I think if you want to be sure that Lady Hardy sees you again--...If you don't want to take risks about that--...One never knows in these cases.Probably there is a night train."Sir Richmond manifested no surprise at the warning.But he stuck to his point.His voice was faint but firm."Couldn't make up anything to say to her.Anything she'd like."Dr.Martineau rested on that for a little while.Then he said: "If there is anyone else?""Not possible," said Sir Richmond, with his eyes on the ceiling.

"But to see?"

Sir Richmond turned his head to Dr.Martineau.His face puckered like a peevish child's."They'd want things said to them...Things to remember...I CAN'T.I'm tired out.""Don't trouble," whispered Dr.Martineau, suddenly remorseful.

But Sir Richmond was also remorseful."Give them my love," he said."Best love...Old Martin.Love."Dr.Martineau was turning away when Sir Richmond spoke again in a whisper."Best love...Poor at the best...."He dozed for a time.Then he made a great effort."I can't see them, Martineau, until I've something to say.It's like that.Perhaps I shall think of some kind things to say--after a sleep.But if they came now...I'd say something wrong.Be cross perhaps.Hurt someone.I've hurt so many.People exaggerate...People exaggerate--importance these occasions.""Yes, yes," whispered Dr.Martineau."I quite understand."Section 4

For a time Sir Richmond dozed.Then he stirred and muttered.

"Second rate...Poor at the best...Love...Work.

All..."

"It had been splendid work," said Dr.Martineau, and was not sure that Sir Richmond heard.

"Those last few days...lost my grip...Always lose my damned grip.

"Ragged them....Put their backs up....Silly....

"Never....Never done anything--WELL....

"It's done.Done.Well or ill....

"Done."

His voice sank to the faintest whisper."Done for ever and ever...and ever...and ever."Again he seemed to doze.

Dr.Martineau stood up softly.Something beyond reason told him that this was certainly a dying man.He was reluctant to go and he had an absurd desire that someone, someone for whom Sir Richmond cared, should come and say good-bye to him, and for Sir Richmond to say good-bye to someone.He hated this lonely launching from the shores of life of one who had sought intimacy so persistently and vainly.It was extraordinary--he saw it now for the first time--he loved this man.If it had been in his power, he would at that moment have anointed him with kindness.

The doctor found himself standing in front of the untidy writing desk, littered like a recent battlefield.The photograph of the American girl drew his eyes.What had happened? Was there not perhaps some word for her? He turned about as if to enquire of the dying man and found Sir Richmond's eyes open and regarding him.In them he saw an expression he had seen there once or twice before, a faint but excessively irritating gleam of amusement.

"Oh!--WELL!" said Dr.Martineau and turned away.He went to the window and stared out as his habit was.

Sir Richmond continued to smile dimly at the doctor's back until his eyes closed again.

It was their last exchange.Sir Richmond died that night in the small hours, so quietly that for some time the night nurse did not observe what had happened.She was indeed roused to that realization by the ringing of the telephone bell in the adjacent study.

Section 5

For a long time that night Dr.Martineau had lain awake unable to sleep.He was haunted by the figure of Sir Richmond lying on his uncomfortable little bed in his big bedroom and by the curious effect of loneliness produced by the nocturnal desk and by the evident dread felt by Sir Richmond of any death-bed partings.He realized how much this man, who had once sought so feverishly for intimacies, had shrunken back upon himself, how solitary his motives had become, how rarely he had taken counsel with anyone in his later years.His mind now dwelt apart.Even if people came about him he would still be facing death alone.

And so it seemed he meant to slip out of life, as a man might slip out of a crowded assembly, unobserved.Even now he might be going.The doctor recalled how he and Sir Richmond had talked of the rage of life in a young baby, how we drove into life in a sort of fury, how that rage impelled us to do this and that, how we fought and struggled until the rage spent itself and was gone.That eddy of rage that was Sir Richmond was now perhaps very near its end.Presently it would fade and cease, and the stream that had made it and borne it would know it no more.

Dr.Martineau's thoughts relaxed and passed into the picture land of dreams.He saw the figure of Sir Richmond, going as it were away from him along a narrow path, a path that followed the crest of a ridge, between great darknesses, enormous cloudy darknesses, above him and below.He was going along this path without looking back, without a thought for those he left behind, without a single word to cheer him on his way, walking as Dr.Martineau had sometimes watched him walking, without haste or avidity, walking as a man might along some great picture gallery with which he was perhaps even over familiar.His hands would be in his pockets, his indifferent eyes upon the clouds about him.And as he strolled along that path, the darkness closed in upon him.

His figure became dim and dimmer.

Whither did that figure go? Did that enveloping darkness hide the beginnings of some strange long journey or would it just dissolve that figure into itself?

Was that indeed the end?

Dr.Martineau was one of that large class of people who can neither imagine nor disbelieve in immortality.Dimmer and dimmer grew the figure but still it remained visible.As one can continue to see a star at dawn until one turns away.Or one blinks or nods and it is gone.